boobs, yes, boobs.

as a new breastfeeding mother, i've begun to realize a few things...
1. most people are uncomfortable with breastfeeding. why is this? whether or not you chose to feed your baby formula, breastfeed, or pump (all are great options) breastfeeding is a natural, beautiful gift God has given to women. in my opinion, our society has completely become focused on sex, and have oversexualized breasts. which makes my job more difficult. constantly worrying whether my boobs are showing, if i forget to snap my nursing bra shut, going out of the room for 45 minutes (max is a fussy, stubborn eater. it takes him a while) to feed him when others are present. and when you are feeding every 3 hours, you spend a lot of alone time! i have a hard time covering myself, and trying to get max to eat at the same time, its nearly impossible. so, most of my days are spent sequestered.
2. breastfeeding is stressful! you never know how much your baby is getting. is he eating enough? is he gaining sufficient weight? am i producing enough milk? should i pump to see if he'll drink more? what if he only eats for 5 minutes? how long should he eat for? am i eating the right foods? drinking enough water? when you are responsible for keeping a little baby healthy, and its your job to do so, and you produce the little man's food...its a lot to think about!
3. the third thing i've realized is, yea it is hard. but i am doing all i can do, and i am doing what i think is best for my max. whether or not my milk dries up, or i can continue to breastfeed i have done all i can do to make it work.

after all this worrying, and i have time to do a lot of it, here are a few things i'm grateful for.
1. my three boys, my little family, my whole life: isaac, max, and bob.
2. my health and my family's health.
3. i really am grateful for my boobs, not only do they help keep my little boy healthy, but my husband like them, too.